Have you ever experienced one of those moments where you just felt like you wanted to burst into song like some scene straight out of a Disney Movie or some play off of Broadway? Not necessarily for shits and giggles but because you have so much emotion welled up inside of you that is just clamoring to get out–and for some reason whenever you heard a song, it just resonated in some mysterious and beautiful way.
For me, that was always the case. If I was upset, happy, excited, I’d pop on a playlist filled with all sorts of jams that reflected just that emotion and I could feel those sensations swell higher and greater the stronger the beat, the louder the vocals. One of my biggest regrets is that I never pursued musical training as a child–or rather I didn’t stick it out for very long.
I do recall two very short lived attempts with wind instruments–first with the flute which was very not meant to be; and later with the clarinet, equally an ill match. Why a child with poor lung capacity and sinus problems believed those were the best options for her I will never quite understand but thus was the path I chose. Afterwards I decided to stop the pursuit altogether and instead focused on art and writing which turned out to be enjoyable all the same, but the regret of course still lingers.
Thinking about it now I wish I’d tried piano. Violin–or even more-so, electric violin. The instruments I hear that give me goosebumps when the are doing exhilarating emotional solos at the orchestra or during a Lady Gaga concert (yes that woman is MAD talented).
Now, I know what I’m about to say will spark plenty of argument and controversy but what doesn’t in todays world?
I was so excited to learn that there were AI programs that allowed music creation recently I practically piddled myself (sorry for the TMI). And I know, I know. Real artists HATE AI. It “steals from the actual creators” and “doesn’t require any real work.” But hear me out. I genuinely am not stealing anything using this and it actually is far more challenging then you expect–at least if you use it the way many individuals do.
You type in prompts–yes they can be simple and basic and yes you can leave it at that if you wish. BUT you can also be as complex as you so please right down to choose what instruments are included, writing your own lyrics, even recording 10 seconds of your own voice so that the AI can create a version of it to use for the vocalist. No I don’t quite go that far. My confidence isn’t quite up to par with allowing the world to hear me sing even if it is mostly AI generated. But writing lyrics, choosing instrumentals? Yeah I can do that.
And what a rush it is–to have something created that was in part because of my creative vision. Do I know how to play the instruments? NO. And that still bothers me. I want to learn that. Someday if I can ever afford it. I imagine that feeling is even more amazing. But for now, this gives me that chance to spill those cresting emotions surging within me and let them break free in song like I’ve always imagined. Its truly hard to describe…what its like to hear what YOU feel born in musical note. There’s really nothing quite like it. I suppose electrifying. Awe-inspiring. Oh look at my rhyming, gearing up for another song perhaps *laughs*.
This space will be where I post some of my musical creations complete with fun visual effects I design from the beats of the music. Enjoy it as you will…or don’t. But I encourage everyone to give it a chance before knocking it just like with anything. Who knows? You may find a new way to decompress after a stressful day.
Credits of musical generation go to my collaborative gal pal Suno (the musical AI genius) and the visualizer video creation is thanks to the program Specterr. All ownership and design belongs to moi 💗
